Still floating through my 30s...

Hey guys, started a new blog:

http://heylifeimhere.wordpress.com/

Focusing on showing up to life. Something I realized I need to do much more of. Hope you enjoy!

Side tracked...

How easily we get side tracked in life. I can't believe next week will be May already. I also can't believe I haven't written a blog post since January. We are nearing the half point in the year and I am no where near where I should be. Where did the time go? I had big plans that should be half way to fruition. Life is what happened. Unexpected people, places, events. Things pull you off course and you forget to get back on. Sometimes it seems we get pulled off the path in order to gain the weapons we will need for the rest of the journey. Well, I'm suited up and ready to go. Brand new iMac and all. My new blog is still in the works thanks to great advice from great people in my life who don't even know they gave it. Love you all. For those on you on the same path I am, and you know who you are, let's get it.

New beginnings

So I know it's been a minute. And how things can change in just a few months. My 33rd birthday was this past Friday and I had a ball partying with my friends all weekend. It's Monday and we are snowed in (yes in Atlanta.) Guess I needed some time with nothing to do but think. I'm at the age where you really start to examine your life. I have had several conversations with friends who are realizing they are not where they thought they should be in life but also realize they are exactly where they are supposed to be. Where do we go from here? That is up to us. This will be a big year. I have a new blog coming soon that will take you on the journey with me. I've been gone too long. I'm back in business. This year my life will be an open book, so if you are a part of my life, you have officially been warned. Happy New Year. Cheers.

Blinders

Sometimes I look around and almost lose hope. It seems so many of us are operating with full blinders on. Why are we so afraid to see the truth? Why are we so inclined to lie to ourselves about our reality. It is because we would then be forced to actually do something about it? Stand up to it? Be the ones who initiate change? You must first be aware of your true reality before you can change it. In the past week, I have been instilled with new hope. I am seeing our young people rise up and start to tackle the things that live beyond the blinders. Seeing this is beautiful. I see where our world is headed and we will need this generation to be fearless and full of hope. It's the only way true change will ever transpire.

The Good Life

The past 2 weeks have been crazy. My beliefs have been challenged. My faith has been tested along with my patience. I've had some new amazing people enter my life and a few leave (or at least take a time out.) I've been shocked by people close to me I didn't think could shock me. I've come to terms with things I have been struggling with. But the result is a clearer vision of my future and purpose, even more appreciation for the special people in my life and greater love for myself. I am truly blessed and full of gratitude for the life I live. All of it, the good and the bad, is what makes it so beautiful.

Peace, be still.

I've read a lot of books over the last year. Books on the law of attraction and the power of thought. Books on belief and believing. Books on setting goals, planning and taking control of your own life. As you know, I've been in a growing stage. Through all the books, reflection, prayers and meditation I have learned a valuable lesson - to be still. I've spent so much of my life going all of the time. Working multiple jobs, juggling multiple responsibilities, missing sleep. I admit that I'm still always on go, but I've learned to take moments each day, be still and listen to what life is telling me. It's amazing what opens up to you when you learn to be still. In stillness, God speaks.

Simple

Today's post will be short and sweet and will sum up my life at the moment : Grateful.

GODSends

Had a great time talking to someone special today that I haven't talked to in a long time. There are some people that come into our life clueless of the impact they make on you. I would call them GODsends. He sends you who you need when you need them even if you don't realize it until they have done their job and are gone. These are the people in your life you should be eternally grateful for. The ones who guide your lessons, comfort you in the sad times, help to heal your heart and hurt your feelings when you really need them hurt to grow. Not everyone is meant to be there for a lifetime....but then again you never know. You still have your whole life ahead of you and true friends always come back around. 

Super Powers

On a daily basis I hear of incredible new super powers created in the mind of the most amazing boy I know. (I swear I am not biased just because I made him myself.) It's amazing the detail he puts into the characters he creates in his on-going action adventure. This is a game he has been playing for almost two years. And yes as he gets older it evolves and he never forgets a detail. It's quite mind blowing. As I was listening to my daily re-cap of this adventure, I began thinking about super powers. We all have super powers. Most of us just waste them, never tapping into them. We all have special gifts that make us who we are. So why don't we use them? We read about the super powers of those who have lived before us, but think for some reason we are not capable of these amazing things. Is it simply that we have lost our imagination? The capability of manifesting these powers with our thoughts? At what point in life do we lose this brilliant imagination? And how can we get it back? I pray that my son never loses his.

Love Lessons

 I can't believe it's almost October. This year has flew by. I have been reflecting on this year as I set some pretty big goals and sort of ended up on a different path. I want to make sure I'm not missing any lessons meant for me. If I had to give this year a title so far, it would be the year of "love lessons." If you have known me for a long time or paid any attention to my blog, you have an idea of my history with relationships. You would think I would have learned some things a long time ago, but some lessons you keep repeating because you don't like the truth in them. I've learned no matter how much you don't like the truth, it is a blessing and will set you free. I think I have learned the most lessons about love this year of my life than all of the other years combined. The biggest lesson I'm still learning is how to really be in love with me. For a long time, I had no clue. I loved others more than I loved myself and it caused me a lot of heartache and pain. It took me a long time to realize I had to love myself first. If I didn't know how to do that right, how I could never really love anyone else? And how could anyone else ever really love me? I've learned what love doesn't look like. I lied to myself about that one for a very long time. Love doesn't hurt. I've learned that love can come unexpectedly and sometimes instantly. I've learned that love doesn't mean you have to be with someone and you can love from afar. I've learned a lot about reasons, seasons and lifetimes. I've learned the heart is very resilient and is always capable of loving again no matter how broken you may think it is. Most or all, I've learned that if you live each day with love and put love into everything you do, love will always come back to you.  Spread luv. 

FYI...

Life is wonderful right now and I am so grateful for this moment I am in. My motivation is at an all time high - which means there will be some people who probably get upset with me. I am completely focused so if you don't hear from me, don't take it personal. It's not that I love you any less, it's that I have to give 100% to what I know I need to do. It's crazy how when you take the time to really do you and follow your dreams, the people who are too afraid to do that for themselves are the ones who will have the biggest problems with it. Misery loves company, but I don't know that b*tch.

It's on...

So I'm sort of in a battle against my self. Well maybe not a battle but a challenge. I reached that moment that you wait for but think it will never come. That "click" or "ah ha" or "get it" moment. When all the crap that you go through in life suddenly reveals it's purpose. Yes, that is the moment I am currently in. Gratitude swag in full effect right now. I won't share what it is that revealed itself to me...at least not yet. But trust me, it will reveal itself to the world soon enough. So, I will boldly say I have had a vision of my true purpose. Now, my challenge is to step out fully on faith and go all in on it. Guess my new tattoo had perfect timing. 

Busy Bee...

Pause....ok that's about the only break I have been able to take in over a week. My to do list runs into next year. But busy is much better than bored. Got some big things on that list. Can't wait. God is good. 

Set-Back

The enemy really goes all out when you are close to your breakthrough. So I've been sick for like a week. The kind where you have a lot to do but can't really function. But you still try to function anyway and in turn you just stay sick because you are not resting. Break the cycle. Anyway, this temporary set back from my new work out routine and projects at home has actually been a blessing in disguise. It has given me time to think. Like really think. Almost meditation, but not quite. Couldn't clear my mind of the pending projects at work and home completely. But still pretty close to meditation. Close enough to have some pretty awesome revelations. This is the part where I laugh in the enemy's face. Ha Ha Ha. This year is almost coming to a close. I got some big things to do before it does. Stay tuned....

Progress

So I started a new exercise routine and I'm seeing progress already. Only get one body, better take care of it right? I've also started a new sleeping routine and eating routine. Feeling better each day. Change is good. Mix that with the people in my life that make me smile on a daily basis and life is beautiful. If I had to describe myself in two words right now they would be: Blessed and Grateful.

Angel

Someone special reminded me of the path I am supposed to be on...how easily we can get distracted and led off into the bushes. Thank God for the Angels he places in your life. Whether they realize they are or not.

Life is good

I am truly blessed. I am grateful for my life. I wouldn't change any of the the experiences that have gotten me to this place. Good or bad they were all beautiful. It took me a minute to get to this place, but it's a wonderful place to be. I have wonderful people in my life that make me smile everyday. I learned how to let go of all the bs, including the people associated with it. I live each moment like it is the only one there is, because I know that each one counts. I can't express my gratitude enough. I look forward to giving back and helping others on their journey. After all, isn't that what this life is all about?

Where does the time go?

Time seems to be speeding up. Either that or I have been so busy lately it just flys by at a quicker pace. I have to say it's a good busy though. The type of busy where you just can't fit everything you want to do in because you are already do so many things you want to do. Plus, a little work. That is the way it should be. I finally learned how to live my life for me and it is the best feeling ever. I know that when my service here is done, I will be able to say that I lived fully. Each day, each moment. Life is beautiful. God is good.

Leeches

It's crazy that when you finally get to a point in life that you focus on your own happiness and everything is going well, the leeches come out in droves. Happiness leeches. They want to suck you into their misery. Can't stand you found a way out of it and they haven't. All I can do it pray for them and keep it moving. 

:)

Life is good. 

That is all for today. Spreadluv.