Torn

What do  you do when your heart and mind don't agree? Who is the mediator? What do you do when you want to help but know you shouldn't? What do you do when you want to walk away but can't? What do you do when you are torn? One word. Pray.

The meaning of it all..

So over the past few weeks, I have started to notice the impact I am beginning to have on others in my life. I am beginning to see the meaning of it all. I am beginning to see why God put me through the things I endured and how I can use those lessons to help others who are dealing with similar situations or similar issues. Helping someone else is the best feeling in the world and makes any amount of pain I have ever experienced completely worth it. You have one life. Learn the lessons. Live the life. Spread luv along the way. God is good all the time.

Healing

I look around at the people in my life and see them where I used to be. I wish I could pull them along, but I can't. I'm on my own journey and they have their own lessons to learn. It gets really hard sometimes as I secretly want to save the world. I want to heal everyone and eliminate all of the self destruction that is the real cause of all the issues. But I can't. That is not my job. I cannot heal the world, but I can heal myself and along the way, spread love. As I do this, maybe those I spread love to will do the same for someone else. Imagine if everyone only helped one other person, what would the world really look like? So simple, yet so impossible. I will hold on to my dreams of healing the world and do my part spreading all the love I can each day. Hopefully, people will catch on and we will all break the chains. Spread a little love today. It could make all the difference. 

All I can do...

...is pray for you. There are some people in our lives we love so much we would do just about anything to help them, fix them, give them happiness, make them whole. To the point where we start to harm ourselves and block our own happiness. There comes a time when you have done everything you can, and all that is left for you to do is pray. We forget the power of prayer. We try to take on the world and everyone's problems and issues. I'm at the point where all I can do is wish you health, happiness and keep you in my prayers. Praying is the most powerful thing I can do, I promise I will continue to pray for you. But you also have to pray for yourself. God is good all the time.

In this moment...

The past month and a half of my life has been like a roller coaster ride. The kind that scares you but leaves you full of smiles and laughter. Not the kind that scares you and leaves you horribly sick. I've had enough of those rides. Before I boarded this ride, I made up my mind that it would be one that I would enjoy. I had just got off the longest, most painful ride to date and wasn't quite sure how to get the deathly sick feeling it left behind out of my system. Then I realized, it was easy. All I had to do was choose the type of ride I wanted to be on. The best ride of all is the one you experience in the moment. Let go and let it take  you where ever the path leads. Happiness is a choice. If you are on the wrong ride, simply get off and choose another. (Oh, by the way, leave the aggravating, misery loves company,  passengers on the one you got off. Don't accidentally take them with you on your new ride or it will still end up making you sick.) Finally learned what it really means when someone says "I'm doing me." Feels so good.

Unbreakable

So I thought I was back when I posted my last post, but I still had some things to go through or should I say let go of before I could move on to this new journey. The 3 things I have learned over the past year:

1- Happiness is a choice

2- First and foremost, I must be so in love with me

3- I can go through anything as long as my faith is unbreakable

Onto the next chapter...can't wait for the lessons this year will bring. Big things are in store for sure. My faith is unbreakable. Bring on the adventure!